i dont know what to do, with my hands when i talk to you.

8:05am: WANT:
like my cat, but better and can fly!

7:47am: "little latin boy in drag ,why are you crying?"
my kitten, that we thought was a girl, turns out to be a boy.
we had named the kitten ChiChi.
seems rather appropriate.

12:10pm: south south natick
bubs and i spent the weekend at his friends rich girlfriends parents house. siiiick.
fireplace, outdoor hottub, lil puppy, filet minon, mimosas, scorpion bowls, ecstasy, kings...the good life, really.
we even walked to this farm and pet goats and sheep and cows and the dog chased chickens! who knew we had all that just a half hour drive from the city..ha...

things i learned this weekend:
we need a hottub.
we need a little dog.
i have the best boyfriend ever.

1:20pm: i am going to die
my throoooaaaattttttttttttt. it huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurts.
whaaaaaaaaahhhhh.


i just want a tattoo of a shark fighting a giant octopus. IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK!?


i need throat tea or like, a gun to my head or something.

3:37pm: SMASH EVERY CREEP IN THE FACE WITH A ROCK
today i listened to the new pissed jeans record and frank zappa and thats it.

both are making me pretty psyched.

3:26pm: you told me you were leavin, you told me go to hell
i decided sleeping alone sucks again.
so now im sleeping with an air condioner.

10:09am: tonight, 730ish, the otherside, get drunk with me on the legal.

12:22pm: not doing anything productive with herself, and just being punk rock and a hairdresser.
i hope someday i grow up and work in coffeeshops and date a gay guy!

8:11pm:

11:06pm: BETTER THAN NOTHING ITS BETTER THAN YOU CAN GET
my ipod shuffle is jocking wicked awesome shit tonight.
good thing, i have to block the awful whatever the people downstairs are listening to during their rager tonight shit.  it sounds like a car alarm has been going off for a couple hours.  '

i should go steal their beers.

1:43pm: your hand looks so good in mine.
i miss when other peoples relationships didnt make me gag.

WHATEVS.

in 10 years im moving to new hampshire to live alone in the woods and write the next great american novel.

8:41pm: i think f.o.d. by green day will always be my favorite song.

2:22am: common neural circuit in male and female voles regulates pair bond formation.
well, i graduated today. it sucked, im sad to leave, however i managed to make it through the day with no tears.
a lot of people really think its such a joke that i spent 10 months in hairdressing school, and that it was nothing. to those people, fuck off. the majority of people i know havent done shit, and most are older than me. since 2004 ive graduated high school, gone to a year of college, and finished beauty school. so blow me.



yeah so about that diet i was going to start today?
we went to the chateau in andover and i definitly got toasted ravioli. FAT KID FOR LIFE. but they served me beer and that was pretty awesome.

12:09pm: i know
What are you used to, babe?
What do you prefer?
Your head is on the mend, babe
Why does it hurt?

Ain't had no sleep
You been on your feet
You been on call
You been at the foot of your bed
All rolled up in a ball

I know your heart is in the right place
Why does it hurt?
Your head is in your lap, babe
Why does it hurt?

8:28pm: i dont even like blondes.
( a little hair story. )

3:03pm: what i want and what i get are not usually the same thing.
I think of awhile ago
we might have had it all
I was so stupid then
you needed time to grow

But now just as things change
as well my feelings do
in time things rearrange
I am so sick of chasing you

But what do I get 'cause I just seem to lose
you make me regret those times I spent with you
and playing those games as I wait for your call
and now I give up, so goodbye and so long

It's not a change of pace
this time I'll get it right
it's not a change of taste
I was the one there last night

You have your other friends
they were there when you cried
didn't mean to hurt you then
best friends just won't leave your side

But what do I get 'cause I just seem to lose
you make me regret those times I spent with you
and playing those games as I wait for your call
and now I give up, so goodbye and so long

It's not a change of pace
this time I'll get it right
it's not a change of taste
I was the one there last night

When I needed you most
when I needed a friend
you let me down now
like I let you down then

So sorry, it's over

6:07pm: damn, katie holmes, you got FAT!
"being painfully alone" is the new "having an internet boyfriend."
i heard that from in touch or somplace like that.

11:03pm: STANDIN AT THE BUS STOP SUCKIN ON A LOLLYPOP.
WAYSTED. the diet pepsi to vodka ratio was a good one1!!!!!!!
and sweet VINCENT cover on idol.....


i got the best shirt ever. "boston, knocks your sox off" its TRUE. im in love with massachusetts. i will never move....maybe to the south shore....it seems that it is where all the fun is.
juicy played on the radio at school today, i was pretty psyched. and i think i burned myself tanning. and might have scratched SUE in my arm....

if you got drunk messages from me tonight.....well....good.

sexually harassing jed is my new hobby.
and markie metal is a huge douche, and i dont care who knows it.

ps-i have weave.

tomorrow should be hangoverfuntimes.

11:11pm: steps twards inner happiness
i got a tanning package today....i cant wait to be tan.

i also went running. yes. running. i thought i was going to DIE.
yeah, i fucking hurt already.


then i went and ruined it by eating macaroni and cheese....
i think lipo would be easier.

8:12am: u h8 me
my birthday is coming up, in like, 2 months.

i only want 2 things.

1. an old one of those shirts that says "how can i be so thirsty when i drank so much last night?"

2. one of those awesome airbrushed shirts with my name and like, a rainbow or a heart or a unicorn.


thats it.

7:12pm: ( BO-RING! )

5:17pm: i did sleep with one of the white sox. then he turned out to be a frat guy wearing a white sox hat.
soooo today blew ass.
hair disaster.
not permanent, just am major annoyance.

i had the wrong extension glue. i went through about an hour of getting them put in, and more pain then i can describe (frances uses direct intense heat to bond them.).
total waste of a whole day.
uhhhhhhh.

7:59am: that dude knows how to party.
last night i had a dream that the cops got called to my moms house because my neigbors called them because gabe (of murder city devils fame) swam naked in their pool, en route to come pick me up.

two things:
i wish my neigbors had a pool.
i sure as hell wish gabe would be coming to pick me up.


also, i woke up and i heard birds chirping, and it was really really light in here.
hopefully, this is the beginning to a nice day?

12:29pm: im watching an MTV reality show about preteens at fat camp.
its called fat camp.



those poor kids.

8:59pm: ima get get get get you drunk.
sue and i had krunk cups.
we drank crazy juice.
and had a mystery car.
then due to tardiness of a cab, markie and i slept at his house.
with no heat.
it was cold.
then today i watched the ron jeremy biography while he tried to get a space heater. and he failed.
i succeeded in getting pizza.

with pizza, everybody wins.